RG, my man, you are one magnificent bastard. You took Lazar's 10,000 word film study and boiled it down to the most essential paragraph. Which is exactly what is
supposed to happen on a forum such as this (and seldom does). Huge props to you for your keen ability to separate the wheat from the chaff.
I think the bottom line here requires some interpretation and speculation.
On the surface, Mac is trying very hard to explain how it looks to him, being in the moment in the center of it all, but I've read it about
5 times and I think there is a subtext here. A hidden message to all the people who care about the Patriots and cannot fathom what the fuck
is really going on. I really think he is sending all of us a clue.
That clue/message, to me, is probably something like:
Hey, I'm not supposed to bitch about anything or even talk to you people, but I'm seeing my career starting to disintegrate when it looked like I was
on the right path to getting NFL respect, which is what I want more than oxygen. All I really want besides that oxygen and sex is the respect of my teammates, coaches and opponents
and instead I'm out there laying it on the line and looking like a giant bag of dicks because I do what I'm told to do and everything goes to shit. Maybe, if you should be so kind,
you could explore other avenues to lay blame, such as the fact that the guy calling plays is a fat, conceited ham n' egger who is getting schooled by every Defense we face. His
system is the problem, not me and the head Coach absolutely loves the guy for some unfathomable reason. I know how to learn, process and execute and I can't do it because following h
is play design makes me feel like a monkey fucking a football in the sawdust pile.