Re: Re: Re: Re: I hope that you are all happy now...
BizarroAnnihilus on 11-05-2006 at 10:40 PM said:
Well, you've obviously still got Internet access....so you've got that going for you.
You wouldn't have to put up with any bullsh!t here if you didn't come here. Just a suggestion.
Yes, you are correct. I was out of line, and now am paying for it, but its my circumstances that really blew it for me.
What is happening to me is the truth. It started three months ago when I lost my job and it took a full month to get back to work.
Contrary to popular belief, I am not retired, and I still have to work for a living.
Things have really gone down hill in the past month as my company took me off salary and I havent drawn a paycheck in 4 weekis. I did get myt car and mileage allowance, that is $450.00 and my social security, which is very small.
I am going to tel lyu al lthat has happened now. My wife and I live on my one income and my social security check. We have been married for 12 years, she cant work, she is sick, and I have medical problems too. My heart and diabetes.
The past few weeks has been hell for me. I have been trying to stay afloat and now everything is crashing in on me.
I paid my rent with a check that bounced. That put me in a debit at the bank of 620.00 and four other payments bounced so my debit in the bank is almost 800.00. My car payment will hit the bank tomorrow, electronically, and that will put me over drawn by 1200.00 and I have about $32.00 in cash to our name.
I have no where to turn..no family here except for one sister , and she cant help.
I put on a good face at the Vine, do my best to cover things up, because I need to do what I can to keep all those people happy, and happy with the club.
But underneath I am literally panicking, and dying.
Both my wife and I need to refill prescriptions...she is not on medicare, or anything, and one of her scrips costs $277 per month..the others have a cop ay , but that one is a special drug and not covered undrer he insiranc eplan.r insuranc eplan, and mine have co-pays under meldicare part B.
We have no way of getting our prescriptions, and we virtually cant shop for food. Luckily I stocked up on some food several weeks ago anticipating this problem.
BTW, my wife knows nothing of this situal;tion because if I tell her she will not be able to handle it.
I am in deep, deep shit, and I see no way to get out for under it, and I believe it has effected some of the things I do here in the forum.
I am really scared. I cant sleep, and I dont see any way to get out of it. Belive me, I have thought of ending it, but if I did that, my wife would not collect on my life insurance.
I come to this forum, and patsfans.com because it gives me a temporary outlet, but I am very scared.
That is why I didnt make the trip to Foxboro.... I even had a free air fare from a friend who is a pilot for southwest airlines and couldnt use it cause i Had no money for anything else, my ticket, food, or anything, if I went, so I gave the free air fare to another member of the club who had some minor problems with finances, too.
I am in deep shit, and there is no way I can see to get out of it.
I amtelling you these things because no one here believes me, and it is really bothering me. I apologize for causing all the upset in this forum the other day..It really is a great forum although I, for one, am partial to patsfans.com, probably cause I have been there so long....
Believe me, I never intended to piss anyone off with that first post, it really was intended to be tongue in cheek...but I guess my humor is different than others.
I am really in serious trouble here....very serious...and it allcomes crashing down on me in 48 hours....as that other car payment gets bounced, my rent check may, or may not, be returned, and my wife goes across the street to get her prescription and that wont go through on the debit card because there is no money.
Sorry to boither you with all this crap, but I have been holding it all in, and , truthfully, I am very, very scared...I honestly believe that I will die this week...because I dont think Ican lhandle this situation any more... and my wife , if she finds out, well, it will be all over for me.....
And to make matters worse, my wife called me at the Vine tonight to tell me that our one tv went on the fritz...when it rains, it pours, I guess.
I'm really not being able to handle this much longer.
Sorry tohit you with all of this, but it's true, and I guess I just needed to spill my guts.
I cover things up, for the most part, but this time i am really going down for the count and I have no where to turn....