minvardar on 11-08-2006 at 04:01 PM said:
NEM I am not sure if you are telling the truth. But I will give you the benefit of the doubt. Try to get some help financially and mentally. Nobody here knows you for real. Only you know yourself. If you were lying it would be the lowest of the low. I hope everything works our for you and your wife.
Everything I said is the truth. I am at the most desperate time of my entire life. Ihave tried to get help everywhere possible, and nothing can be done, by no one. The reason is that my need is immediate. In 48 hours I have no reason to go on. I have tried to find an answer but without result.
And, I have to tie it in with my job which I do , still at 678 years old, for most of the day. I am on the road and it takes up most of my late morning and afternoon. I finish my work here, at home where Iuse the computer to communicate with my corporate office and that is why it appears that I am spending time on a mesageboard.
To tell the truth, it IS the messageboards that help me to keepo from going nuts.... I guess you could cal lit my outlet.
Being put into this particular place, especially at the time that patsfans.com is having all of those problems has been very bad for my head though... compounded by all the other shit that is happening in my life.
My wife's medicine runs out tomorrow, the pharmacy is holding a refill but I dont have the money to pick it up. My prescriptions are running out to the point where I have to cut my pills in half to take half a dose to get more out of them.
I have about enough left for one more fill up of gasoline.
And, I have nothing coming in until November 30th.
It is bearing down on me ... I have 100,000 life insurance policy and an additional 75,000 accidental policy....so blowing my brains out is out of the question because if I did that, my wife gets nothing.
And, I dont think I have the balls to do it, anyway.
Everything I have said is the truth, and it gets worse, and worse as each minute passes.
The bank paid my rent check and my car payment, but in so doing it overdrew my bank account by a bundle of bucks, and on top of that, I got charges an extra 35 dollars for each overdraft... land now I have to pay the bank an additional $1200.00 and I dont have anything, so what the hell is a person to do.?
The Patriots are my only reason to keep my head on straight at night, and that is why I spend time on the forums to keep from going totyally bonkers...and being forced to stay in this forum coumpounds the problem.
I have always lmanaged to say afloat, never wealthy, but statyed afloat, now all of a lsudden it is all crashing in on me....and I have no where, no one to turn to for help. Nothing.
I am sorry to bruden yuo, or anyone with my problems, but I just cant keep it inside me any longer...it is very, very bad...very bad.